What am I doing?
After being with my current company for 11 years, yes you read that right, 11 years!! I’m 30 years old. I shouldn’t have already been at a company for this long right? Well, I’m a creature of nature. I dislike change. I mean, I really DISLIKE change. It makes me nervous. I like being in my comfort zone and routine puts my mind at ease.
So then what am I doing leaving a company to go work somewhere else when I don’t even know if I’ll have a job in three months? Crazy right? This is so out of character for me. It’s slightly better pay, and it’s a really HUGE company so I know as soon as I have my foot in the door the opportunities are endless. At least I hope they are because if when my position is evaluated in three months they see that I’m not working out, I will be out of a job. No money for rent, food, bills… and it’ll be like I’m starting all over again. At 30 years old!
My stomach is in knots. Last night I had a nightmare about my last day at work here, which will be this coming Monday. I was so sad. I’m going to miss all the wonderful people I’ve met here and hope that I will work with easygoing, kind people at my new job. What if I find myself working with nothing but drama queens? Geez…
I haven’t been this nervous in a long time. I’m questioning myself and wondering if I’m even making the right decision. Hopefully this works out. I seriously have no idea what I’m getting myself into. One good thing though, is that I don’t really regret giving my notice, although I do feel really guilty for leaving after this long. I’m just a nervous wreck! Though, I’m sure my nervousness comes from my fear of the unknown. What will it be like? Will I learn everything quickly? Will I like my new co-workers? Will they like me? Will I have a job in three months? Yikes!
This is the time that I should be using all my free time to go running to relieve my stress, but instead I’ve been sleeping in, actually it’s more like staying in bed tossing and turning. Hopefully I’ll run tomorrow AFTER my drug and safety test.
More updates soon… I hope.
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You know what, there is no such thing as making a mistake in the big picture, I figure if you never take a chance, the chance will pass you by.
Yup, I agree. It is nerve-wracking, but if you don’t take the chance, you could be kicking yourself years from now for not trying!
You will be fine, 11 years that is great. Look at my FB posting for how long I’ve held jobs. I’ve moved around alot, and now I’ve been in my current job for a new record….. 4 years – woah.. I switched at 29, so you will be fine.
As everyone else says here, you need to take chances now and then. A little risk here and there pay huge later on
Just keep up the running for stress relief and those 90 days will fly by
Change is scary, but sometimes it can be good and healthy too. A new start, fresh clean slate, great way for building relationships with your peers. Also creates a different mindset for you
Good luck and tell us more about it! You’ll be finnnnneeee!!!